I feel unable to really communicate accurately how I’m feeling right now.
It’s not that it’s terrible, it’s just that everything is going a bit to fast for my self to catch up with.
Don’t worry, nothing terrible is going on…it’s just that either my life is speeding up or my brain is slowing down.
The swing is swinging higher and the roundabout is getting ahead of itself.
Round and Round.
I think I’m alright. Maybe I’m just bored….but there’s more running round in there than I can keep up with.
This is something that happens to me, but normally only under pressurised circumstances. This is not one of those situations.
Worn out maybe.
Still feel happy most of the time, though perhap’s of got the wrong idea about what happy feels like.
Uhoh…it’s another nonsense post about myself….I imagine this is the sort of gumpf that myspace is pasted with.
Right….change of tack.
How was my day?
Pretty good, not much sleep and started off with an argument that was pretty hurtful for both involved (alas alack…I can’t even break up right). Work was pretty boring (shadowing people is uninteresting…i always thought that being a shadow looked like fun…but in the business world…this is not the case…mostly it means standing around looking gormless). Then a break, which gave me an opportunity to catch up with some people….but I think I was being quite boring. Lady L said some interesting things about break ups…which didn’t help….but were interesting. I guess I have a new take on things.
Anyway, then I had to go to work again (different work…where I am now)…where I’m occasionally having to update WoW for people.
I can’t believe how much I am involved in a game that I have never played and think looks rubbish. I reckon I have enough knowledge to make a layman’s eyes glaze over.
This is somewhat useless to me.
Anyway, the point is, that I’m not really doing much to engage my brain lately.
Hence the lack of interesting posts of late.
I can’t work out what’s missing. I still read papers and news stuff about as often (once a week for a proper paper read). I still have a tendency to form opinions and think about the. I’m still reading books and listening to music. I’m still doing stuff with my days.
But my brain hasn’t engaged. Not for ages.
Is it emotions versus brains?
Lord only knows.
I just think my mind isn’t really awake.
Yet at the same time there’s too much going on for the sleepy brain to take it on.
So come on internets….bring it on….what would you do to give my brain a kick up the arse.
I need something to start my brain really thinking, really actually working rather than just coasting along without engaging (sorry for using the same words all the time….but my brain’s not in this, even if my heart is).
I’ll try anything once.