First up, name that closing line.
Secondly, sorry I’ve been incommunicado. I’ve been horrifically ill most of this week. Fevers, aches, pains, insomnia, sweat, hallucinations and a sore throat.
It’s not been pleasant. I haven’t actually been this ill since I was 11 and had to go to Christmas dinner with my extended family in a dressing gown whilst hugging a cushion.
I’m mostly better now, I even went to work yesterday. But yeah, I’ve been locked in my room smelly, doped up, ostracised and going slightly mad.
It’s been an interesting week.
Anyway, I’m left with a dilemma. The more hallucinatory feverishness of Saturday night (no sleep whatsoever…it all got a bit fucked) led me to think I want to change my Nano idea, stop it being about Two-Spirit Third Gender Native Americans and instead turn it into a Naked Lunch inspired (NB I haven’t read the book) piece about a mild dystopia (actually very much like our world, with the obsession with looks and appearances, image and surface) where a drug called (possibly) Dysphoria gains popularity. The idea is that it’s marketed as something to make you be the body and person you want to be…but the experience will be more like melting into deformed parodies of self. I’ve got some wonderful images floating around that just might work. A lot of it pretty dark and disturbing. But I think that’s what I need.
Now, my problem is, it’ll be harder work than the Two Spirit idea….but it would probably be better. And I do have something closer to a plot coming along, rather than just a vague concept.
Also, I worry that it’s something a bit too ‘literary’ to do in such a reckless manner. I mean. 50,000 words of harsh dystopian anti-erotica might lead to one incredibly depressive November. Not to mention the fact that I’m ‘in charge’ this year. Co-MLing the Brighton area with a certain Tielserrath. Making the month even more manic, if that’s possible.
I’m looking forward to it, but I’m also terrified.
Anyway, back to the point.
What do people think I should be rush writing? Safe fantasy or dark dystopia. Both are interesting ideas, both are about subverting boundaries and structures to ways of thought (particularly with regard to gender…as per usual). Neither are as well worked out as last years idea, but that’s kind of what I want…I want to seat of my pants this one to see what happens. It might work…it might not. I guess we’ll see. (Plus I’ve still got over a month (just) to think about all this.
Which way should I go? Dysphoria or Two Spirit. (I’m still trying to work out if there’s anyway of combining the two without destroying the core components, but I don’t think I’ll be able to pull it off.)
Any thoughts here?