Diary?

A Theoretical Upper Limit to the Density of Experience

Posted on 18 March 2008. Filed under: Diary?, Music, Personal, Politics, life |

I bear the emotional, physical and mental scars of a densely packed weekend.
It feels like I squeezed the usual events of a month into about three-four days, to the point where I’m no longer sure how much time has actually elapsed, or is even occurring in the immediate present. My Shatner’s Bassoon is totally [...]

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Twice cooked

Posted on 22 February 2008. Filed under: Assortment, Biscuits, Bits and Pieces, Bourbon, Diary?, Hangover, Lie Berry, Personal |

Sorry I haven’t been around for ages, has been a busy life of late. Also, its actually going to continue being busy, and I’ll be in London for up to a week. When I get back I should still be on my brief chunk of time off, so hopefully I’ll put something real up here [...]

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Breakin’ Down – ‘Im Balance

Posted on 21 November 2007. Filed under: Anxiety, Balance, Diary?, Health, Insanity, Mind, Personal, life |

So,
This is brief, but it’s something I want to get out. Basically, I’ve been pushing myself to extremes recently, partly to deal with some family shit that I’ve been treating as an excuse to hedonise my head into the sand.
My brother’s being made redundant, my parents are having difficulty selling up to retire and my [...]

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Busy in a good way for once

Posted on 5 November 2007. Filed under: Busy, Dating, Diary?, Happy, Nanowrimo, Positive, Relationships, Writing |

Yesterday was a bit manic, involving lots of typing, some laundry, something resembling a date (that managed to be probably the most successful/unsuccessful date I’ve ever been on…for weird complicated reasons that I can’t go into…lots of fun is the key), a large Sunday roast, lots of beer, intense conversation, and….a plot. Not only that, [...]

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Jun Key Me

Posted on 10 September 2007. Filed under: Addiction, Diary?, Junkie, Me, Personal, Waster |

So, it’s probably the longest period of time in…..I can’t remember how long, that I’ve not had any intoxicants in my system.
Right now, for over twenty four hours (actually, almost 36) I haven’t drunk any alkiehole, smoked any reefer (or even baccy) or even drunk any tea (or coffee).
I am disgusted with myself that I [...]

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On being like a Bus

Posted on 18 June 2007. Filed under: Diary?, Personal, Thoughts, life |

I’ve been very busy you see, and certain projects are falling by the way side. Script frenzy has stalled, I keep on breaking dates to watch the end of firefly, and this digital cave is getting mossy.
I haven’t been writing, but I have been reading (being about ten years behind the fashionable literati, I’m currently [...]

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Depressing Results from Online Quiz – Just What I Needed

Posted on 19 May 2007. Filed under: Abuse, Analysis, Apathetic Fallacy, Broken, Circles, Confusion, Damn Lies, Depressing, Detachment, Diary?, Emotion, Emotional, Emotions, Empathy, Entropy, Everything, Experience, Feeling Rough, Fire, Fucked up, Gah, Humanity, Identity, Incoherent, Insecurities, Insignificance, Insomnia, Introspective, Kipple, Lost, Lost Myself, Love, Mania, Me, Memories, Mild Mania, Mood swings, Personal, Personal Growth, Problems, Processes, Ramble, Rant, Reality, Relationships, Screwed up, Self Indulgent, Self Obsession, Self-Hate, Self-Recrimination, Swings and Roundabouts, Thoughts, life |

Picked this up from HPS…what’s my ‘dating persona’?
Oh joy I’m:
The Manchild
Random Brutal Love Dreamer (RBLD)
    Hopeful. Awkward. Soft-headed. [...]

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Lost Mice Elf

Posted on 4 May 2007. Filed under: Diary?, Freud, Lost, Psychology, Ramble, Self, Thoughts, Uncanny |

So geographically speaking, I love being lost.
There’s a mystery and adventure to not knowing quite where you are. I’ve never got scared of being out somewhere I don’t know. I get tired, and sometimes annoyed. But I never get scared.
Wandering through strange, unfamiliar streets can be exciting. Many things bother me about Freud, but one [...]

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Radio Free Ambibath

Posted on 1 April 2007. Filed under: Bath, Books, Diary?, Experience, Music, Phillip K Dick, Radio, Reading, SF, Sci-Fi, Thoughts, Waves, Weird, Weirdness, Werid, Wonderful, Writing |

I’ve just had a rather strange and awakening experience.
I’m currently reading The Divine Invasion, more of my ongoing obsession with Dick you see.
Anyway, I’m astonished by how much of a rollercoaster ride it’s been already. Normally when I read something by Dick I start of fascinated, and become increasingly so until I reach a point [...]

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Insomnia Bites

Posted on 29 March 2007. Filed under: Diary?, Insomnia, Personal, Thoughts |

I’m having lots o’ trouble sleeping.
Last night I managed to drift in and out whilst watching Edward Scissorhands, which inevitably just made me really fucking sad.
I did get a few hours in the end…but I’ve woken up feeling slightly worse than I did when I went to bed.
Insomnia always picks a really irritating time to [...]

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Knew what I Know

Posted on 28 March 2007. Filed under: Diary?, Film, Learning, Personal, Ramble, Thoughts, life |

I watched Rushmore while falling asleep last night (or not..in fact I was totally brutalised by insomnia all night and I’m not looking forward to being at work for ten and a half hours, especially not on a beautiful sunny day like today.
Anyway, Wes Anderson makes the strangest coming of age movies. It’s the common [...]

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Thoughts Encrusted

Posted on 19 March 2007. Filed under: Busy, Diary?, Mild Mania, Personal, Thoughts |

Well, it’s my eyes that feel encrusted to be honest. I clearly haven’t had enough sleep and it’s clearly to early.
I’m not expecting to be witty and original any time soon. I’m in fact just trying to waste time while the water heats up so I can wash the metaphorical mud off my tired tired [...]

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Sun and Sandals – A Saturday of Free Feet and Decandent Drinking

Posted on 3 March 2007. Filed under: Diary?, Feet, Sandals, Sun, life |

Oh yes, the socks have finally come off.
Premature? Probably…but it means I can return to a state of spiritual bliss.
Kind of.
But yes…I guess this is kind of a response to Azahar’s not so recent discussion, that definitely spawned from warmer climes than the winds and wilds of Southern Britain (well…ok, the wildest thing here are [...]

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Perchance to Wake? – The Science of Sleep

Posted on 21 February 2007. Filed under: Blurs, Boundaries, Creativity, Critique, Curioisity, Diary?, Dreams, Elegaic, Emotional, Emotions, Everything, Experience, Fantasy, Fear, Film, Fucked up, Gah, Heart, Honest, How to think, Identity, Imagination, Incoherent, Learning, Madness, Mania, Me, Memories, Mental, Michel Gondry, Mild Mania, Mind, Observations, Personal, Ramble, Reality, Schizophrenia, Security, Self, Silliness, Strange, Stupid, Swings and Roundabouts, The Science of Sleep, Things that make me Smile, Thoughts, Tired, Weird, Weirdness, Werid, Wonderful, life |

So, indeed, I did watch the Science of Sleep the night before last. I enjoyed it massively, in fact it was an incredibly personally affective film for me. A little nerve-wracking almost, for all the naive silliness that goes on. I’ll explain in a moment.
First off let me mention that the french title is shown [...]

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Real Gig this time – Suggestion Box

Posted on 14 February 2007. Filed under: Breakcore, Brighton, Britain, Clubbing, Culture, Curioisity, DJ, Diary?, Drill 'n' Bass, Electronica, Events, Fear, Imagination, Mild Mania, Music, News, Silly |

So I’m playing the Volks this Saturday. Main room this time as well. This is terrifying. I need to practice…but I also need some ideas. I’m gonna try and play around all day tomorrow (once I finish work) and see if I can come up with anything fun. I’ve got to be slightly more stable [...]

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