One way you can tell a subject is particularly contentious is if you see me taking two sides of the argument on two separate occasions. Especially if I’m the one starting the argument each time and I’m the most vociferous each time.
Particularly when I still can’t decide where I stand.
And especially when I change [...]
3 April 2008
Categories: Feminism, Language, Mind, Politics, Postmodernism, Rant, Subversion, gender . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 4 Comments
So, I’ve been reading Scott McCloud’s ludicrously excellent Understanding Comics. If you have any interest in creating any kind of artwork, or anything creative at all(surely that’s just creating anything), then you should read this book, possibly twice.
After only one read through I think I could potentially have a couple of months worths of blog [...]
8 February 2008
Categories: Comics, Identity, Literature, Mind, Representation, Self, Writing . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 5 Comments
So, this isn’t going to make much sense, but it was wonderful. Essentially, I’ve just woken up from a particularly intense barrage of dreams, but I’ve got to go somewhere pretty soon (Tai Chi practice marathon) so can’t go too in depth, I just want to cement some of what happened.
It all started with what [...]
3 February 2008
Categories: Creation, Creativity, Death, Dreams, Intricate, Mind . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 1 Comment
Did the faerie folk lead me to the crest of a mountain?
Alas no, just more sound play.
I tried to write the project that’s been composting since the year began, and I heard about this.
It didn’t work, and I’m frustrated by this. It may just be part of my current trouble with words and communication, or [...]
1 February 2008
Categories: Dream, Failure, Mind, Walk, World, Writing, life . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 3 Comments
Disgusting people in this world.
Still feel smypathy for them, it’s hard not to. People end up having grown up with a warped and stunted view of socialisation. I’m not sure how it happens (though I have my suspicions) but some people seem unable to communicate wholly and fully, naturally and openly with other people.
Their goals, [...]
25 January 2008
Categories: Change, Feminism, Masculinity, Me, Mind, Sexual Violence, Useless, gender, life . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 5 Comments
Nonsense.
Tricky post see. I’m having trouble communicating today. It’s very upsetting for me.
I keep on typing things wrong, like words entirely wrong. Totally unrelated to original word. I don’t like not being able to get my thoughts out quickly enough.
Probably just lack of sleep and stuff, so I’ll be briefish.
But yeah. All day, things have [...]
23 January 2008
Categories: Communication, I'm so tired, Mind, Swings and Roundabouts . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 5 Comments
Huh - what?
Well.
Yesterday, I woke up, naked as usual. And I listened to In Rainbows, whilst lying in bed.
The whole morning (when I was supposed to be being productive) was devoted to ‘pleasures of the flesh’.
Not how it sounds. Honest.
Basically, I just lazed around naked listening to music.
I, and I don’t often believe this, am [...]
12 January 2008
Categories: Body, Mind, Sexy, Weird . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 3 Comments
I feel alive today, like, really alive.
It was a long day at work, but in the middle of it I had to go to the other side of town (Hove, actually) for a brief training course.
The fire safety training was not exhilarating, but the walk there and back was.
I love walking, and I haven’t had [...]
11 January 2008
Categories: Dancing, Elements, Living, Mind, Personal, Sea, life . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 5 Comments
So, talk of Quilts the other day.
Additional to yesterday’s Nick Drake fuelled downbeat thoughtfulness.
Anyway, the theme, maybe, is people. Groups, support and how we deal with things.
After I whinged yesterday, I watched the documentary about Drake, including interviews with his family, people who knew him etc.
After having been downified by the liner notes, something came [...]
28 December 2007
Categories: Catharsis, Community, Emotional, Mind, Music, Support . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 3 Comments
So, the festive break back in St Albans was pretty wonderful all round (though I got too drunk on Christmas Eve, and made a dick out of myself, that only partly ruins the feeling because I can’t remember it so it’s hard to feel that bad).
Anyway, family, friends and loved ones abound back there, it’s [...]
27 December 2007
Categories: Depression, Mind, Music, life . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: No Comments
It is hard to reward myself when I can’t turn to my usual staples of booze and other types of booze.
See, I hit 20k. Which means I managed 2.5k today. This is good wording, but now I’ve made that milestone, and I’m finding it hard to punctuate my day in such a way as to [...]
22 November 2007
Categories: Mind, Motivation, Nanowrimo, Personal, Room, life . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 1 Comment
So,
This is brief, but it’s something I want to get out. Basically, I’ve been pushing myself to extremes recently, partly to deal with some family shit that I’ve been treating as an excuse to hedonise my head into the sand.
My brother’s being made redundant, my parents are having difficulty selling up to retire and my [...]
21 November 2007
Categories: Anxiety, Balance, Diary?, Health, Insanity, Mind, Personal, life . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 5 Comments
So, thanks to someone else keeping note of their random surfing, and ending up at my place. I’m reminded of a ‘classic’ article from the archives.
Anyway, I reread my thoughts, and it was weird to tour my head again. I very rarely go back and read stuff on my blog, and I think I should. [...]
8 November 2007
Categories: Analysis, Doubt, Madness, Me, Mind, Relationships, Romance, life . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 6 Comments
In a brief (possibly that’s it actually, we’ll see how things go) break from my recollections of the weekend, I’m going to do something a bit different.
That is, listen to something somebody else said.
The always inspirational Brightfeather is asking questions about happiness. I only looked at the first two before deciding that I’d take part [...]
29 October 2007
Categories: Happiness, Health, Mind, Personal, Questions, Self Improvement . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 11 Comments
So, this is all inspired by the new Battlestar Galactica, of which I have just finished the first season of…no spoilers please, I’ll try and do the same.
Anyway, that question…’Are you alive?’ has such significance in and out of the series. I was unnerved when it first gets asked, by an artificial being (Cylon) of [...]
15 October 2007
Categories: Alive, Battlestar Galactica, Living, Mind, Stress, Work, life . . Author: Alabaster Crippens . Comments: 6 Comments