Category Archives: Personal Growth

Gimme Some Sass – Gender Funk

Posted on 24 June 2007 by

So, be warned, this may not be my most forward thinking post, but I’ve been thinking about the contradictions inherent in myself recently, and thought writing about them, whilst posting some relevant videos might be something I could do on … Continue reading →

Posted in Aggression, Analysis, Androgynism, Body Image, Boundaries, Changing the World, Chauvinism, Commodication, Confusion, Consumerism, Critique, Culture, Dancing, Debate, DJing, Electronica, Empathy, Equality, Everything, Femininity, Feminism, Gah, gender, Gender Equality, Gender Identity, Gender Play, Gender Roles, Genderfuck, Glamour, Humps, Identity, Ideology, Individuality, Language, life, Mild Mania, Music, Objectification, Observations, Personal, Personal Growth, Perspective, Politics, Problems, Punk, Ramble, Rant, Rude, Self Image, Self Obsession, Self-Identity, Sex, Sexuality, Sexy, Swings and Roundabouts, Thoughts, Transgender, Women | 6 Comments

Ugly Little Goat Monster, Why you looking at me like that?

Posted on 23 May 2007 by

Sooo. I’ve been planning a post about beauty for a while. Lots of different aspects of it. But then I started feeling Ugly. Real Ugly. I was lying in bed last night, very tired, just trying to experience my body … Continue reading →

Posted in Beauty, Beholder, Body, Body Image, Down, Emotional, Feeling Rough, Feminism, Goat Monster, Introspective, life, Looking forward, Objectification, Observations, People, Perception, Personal, Personal Growth, Photogenic, Security, Self Esteem, Self Image, Self Obsession, Self-Hate, Sexy, Ugly | 14 Comments

Depressing Results from Online Quiz – Just What I Needed

Posted on 19 May 2007 by

Picked this up from HPS…what’s my ‘dating persona’? Oh joy I’m: The Manchild Random Brutal Love Dreamer (RBLD)     Hopeful. Awkward. Soft-headed. Fire intrigues you. You are The Manchild. Okay, Manchildren have some good qualities. They can be unpredictable, … Continue reading →

Posted in Abuse, Analysis, Apathetic Fallacy, Broken, Circles, Confusion, Damn Lies, Depressing, Detachment, Diary?, Emotion, Emotional, Emotions, Empathy, Entropy, Everything, Experience, Feeling Rough, Fire, Fucked up, Gah, Humanity, Identity, Incoherent, Insecurities, Insignificance, Insomnia, Introspective, Kipple, life, Lost, Lost Myself, Love, Mania, Me, Memories, Mild Mania, Mood swings, Personal, Personal Growth, Problems, Processes, Ramble, Rant, Reality, Relationships, Screwed up, Self Indulgent, Self Obsession, Self-Hate, Self-Recrimination, Swings and Roundabouts, Thoughts | 19 Comments

Idea Compost – The Androgyne Spirituality of the Berdache

Posted on 14 May 2007 by

Edit: Just did some further reading and the preferred term for Berdache is Two Spirit (Berdache is etymologically Spanish in origin and has negative connotations…however, I don’t want to say ‘Spirituality of the Two Spirit’ as it’s repetitive. More information … Continue reading →

Posted in Androgynism, Berdache, Culture, Curioisity, Equality, Everything, Fantasy, Femininity, Feminism, Fun, Gah, gender, Gender Identity, Gender Play, Gender Roles, Humps, Ideas, Identity, Individuality, Inequality, Learning, life, Objectification, Open Minded, People, Perception, Personal Growth, Play, Possibility, Ramble, Random, Self-Identity, Sexism, Sexuality, Sexy, Strange, Subversion, Swings and Roundabouts, Third Gender, Transgender, Women, Writing | 4 Comments

Blue Sky Thinking

Posted on 7 March 2007 by

Lots of Inspirational things have been driving my way in the last twenty four hours or so. Not least of all is a wonderfully thoughtful webcomic called Copper. Seemingly just about a clever dog and his wise young master and … Continue reading →

Posted in Comics, Culture, Emotion, Emotional, Energy, Everything, Experience, Film, Imagery, Imagination, Learning, life, Looking forward, Mood swings, Observations, Personal Growth, Philosophy, Ramble, Swings and Roundabouts, Things that make me Smile, Thoughts | 3 Comments

Love what You Do

Posted on 5 March 2007 by

So, I know I cussed down Freakonomics fairly the other day, but I found something really interesting on their site last night. One sentence in this report (found here)really stuck in my mind and sparked off a whole chain of … Continue reading →

Posted in Communism, Critique, Culture, Curioisity, Education, Learning, Personal Growth, Psychology, Thoughts, Work | 2 Comments

Too Much Too Fast – Somebody Engage my Brain

Posted on 16 February 2007 by

I feel unable to really communicate accurately how I’m feeling right now. It’s not that it’s terrible, it’s just that  everything is going a bit to fast for my self to catch up with. Don’t worry, nothing terrible is going … Continue reading →

Posted in Abnormality, boredom, Brain, Emotions, Idiot, Imagination, Incoherent, Learning, life, Mind, Observations, Personal, Personal Growth, Ramble, Swings and Roundabouts, Thoughts, Tiredness | 3 Comments

Slow Painful Progress – Moods and Trolls

Posted on 12 February 2007 by

So, I am still maintaining some kind of forward motion on the nano. I finally got the ball rolling again. Only problem is it’s going incredibly slowly. I kinda took the weekend off and spent most of it absolutely bladdered…or … Continue reading →

Posted in Beer, boredom, Creativity, Detachment, Diary?, Drinking, Emotions, Energy, Feeling Rough, Film, Frost Troll, Gah, Hope, Imagination, Incoherent, life, Looking forward, Lovely, Mild Mania, Music, Nanowrimo, Nonsense, Novel, Personal, Personal Growth, Ramble, Swings and Roundabouts, Things that make me Smile, Thoughts, Tired, Tiredness, Vikings, Violence, Werid, Writing | 7 Comments

Yield To Total Elation

Posted on 13 January 2007 by

Indeed I will, I shall and I have been for the last hour. The track (YTTE by Matmos) is only 9 minutes and seven seconds long. It is rare that I repeat a track this many times. But it’s just … Continue reading →

Posted in Art, Artistry, Creativity, Drill 'n' Bass, Elation, Electronica, Elegaic, Emotional, Everything, Experiment, Fun, Imagination, Incoherent, Internal Organs, Le Petit Mort, Lovely, Matmos, Mild Mania, Mood swings, Music, Nonsense, Observations, Optimism, Orgasm, Pain, Perception, Personal, Personal Growth, Poo, Propaganda, Ramble, Rant, Real-Time, Revolution, Scientific Endeavour, Storytelling, Thanks, Things that make me Smile, Track Review, Unconfined Joy, Vaguely Postmodern, Violence, Wonderful | 4 Comments

Day…Today…Indeed

Posted on 11 January 2007 by

I had a day today. Not quite finished it yet, but I thought I’d jot some thoughts down as I’ve been quiet for a coupla days. I got practically no sleep, with what I did get performed entirely in stops … Continue reading →

Posted in Art, Artistry, Brighton, Comics, Creativity, Critique, Culture, Curioisity, Day, De Old and De New, Diary?, Dreams, Education, Electronica, Emotional, Environment, Everything, Evolution, Fashion, Friends, Fun, Games, History, I am an Artist, I'm a Hippy, Identity, Imagination, Incoherent, Investigation, Learning, Literature, Looking forward, Matmos, Media, Mild Mania, Money, Mood swings, Motivation, Music, Observations, Optimism, Perception, Personal, Personal Growth, Philosophy, Punk, Ramble, Rant, Reality, Stereotypes, Storytelling, Stupid, Swings and Roundabouts, Talentless, Thanks, Things that make me Smile, Vaguely Postmodern, Want want want, Weird, Weirdness, Werid | 12 Comments

Gheppy Moo Fear

Posted on 31 December 2006 by

So, I’ve got a really interesting article I want to write, kind of a follow on from the whole Lying Santa shenanigans…but I’m on my home computer in St A and it’s having issues (random shutdowns), so I’m going to … Continue reading →

Posted in Abnormality, Apathetic Fallacy, Apocalypse, Creativity, Culture, De Old and De New, Diary?, Friends, Fun, I am an Artist, I'm a Hippy, Incoherent, Learning, life, Looking forward, Mild Mania, Observations, Optimism, Pain, Personal, Personal Growth, Weird, Weirdness, Werid | 7 Comments

Tired and Ill but still thinking too much – Lies and Fantasies and Raising Children

Posted on 27 December 2006 by

So, this is being written while I’ve got something resembling a cold. Also my guts are churning and my head is screwed. I may not be on top form. However, I am also trapped in work and this is the … Continue reading →

Posted in Abnormality, Anti-Capitalism, Bum, Capitalism, Consumerism, Controversy, Conversation, Critique, Culture, Curioisity, Diary?, Education, Emotional, Environment, Ethics, Everything, Evolution, Family, Gender Identity, Ill, Incoherent, Learning, Lies, Mild Mania, Mood swings, Morality, Observations, Personal, Personal Growth, Philosophy, Politics, Possible Lies, Raising Children, Ramble, Scientific Endeavour, Stupid, Subversion, Swings and Roundabouts, Tired, Weirdness, Yuletide | 11 Comments

Did I shoot Andy Warhol?

Posted on 22 December 2006 by

Of course, I didn’t shoot Andy Warhol, at least not in this life. But I’ll get back to that later. First, a warning. This is going to be another of my long rambling rambles. I am not going to restrain … Continue reading →

Posted in Andy Warhol, Art, Assault, Bigotry, Controversy, Critique, Culture, Debate, Diary?, Dreams, Equal Rights, Ethics, Everything, Feminism, Gender Equality, Gender Identity, Gender Roles, Identity, Incoherent, Inequality, Matmos, Mild Mania, Mood swings, Morality, Motivation, Observations, Personal, Personal Growth, Philosophy, Politeness, Politics, Ramble, Rant, Real-Time, Sahil, Sexism, Swings and Roundabouts, Thanks, Uncategorized, Vaginal Tract, Valerie Solanas | 14 Comments