Sexduality

So, I’ve written about this before, kinda.
Anyway, I’m writing, because I’ve got something to write about, and it’s not misery-centric, and it mightbe interesting, and my stats have plummeted, and I’ve stopped paying attention. This gives me motivation to do something, and it really was an interesting conversation. Broad generalisations ahoy, apologies if it’s all [...]

S’late

It is.
Shouldn’t be writing but the urge is grabbing me. I think I’m just trying to put off making the bed. It’s a task I hate, despite the rewards. Clean sheets, cosy wrap, and that neatness of building a nest and fitting into it right. Made for you (Beach Boys).
Still enjoying the new Why? (Alopecia) [...]

Violent Dreams and Hard Times Waking

I’m run down. Tired and lacking in energy.
Just when things were looking a little bit up at work, and I could’ve done with a break to let that idea settle, I went all festival for the weekend, which was mostly fun, but involved some serious emotional drainage. The sea witch was there and I was [...]

A Theoretical Upper Limit to the Density of Experience

I bear the emotional, physical and mental scars of a densely packed weekend.
It feels like I squeezed the usual events of a month into about three-four days, to the point where I’m no longer sure how much time has actually elapsed, or is even occurring in the immediate present. My Shatner’s Bassoon is totally [...]

Twice cooked

Sorry I haven’t been around for ages, has been a busy life of late. Also, its actually going to continue being busy, and I’ll be in London for up to a week. When I get back I should still be on my brief chunk of time off, so hopefully I’ll put something real up here [...]

Too Much Information - Smells and Hair

So, I’m a smelly person.
This has been pointed out to me by strangers and co-workers.  This is a constant source of self esteem issues for me. The awareness that even if I look pretty and am charming,there is a cloud of atmosphere around me that may still make me unnattractive and unpleasant.
It’s not nice. I [...]

Ass Per Asian Eel - Definitely a Monkey

My mind is flighty this evening. Running too fast and too tired. All in the mind.
But I’ve been thinking, and  an article about people following dreams and potentially changing the way creativity is composted, coupled with a meeting at work about my ‘personal development’, is leading me to thoughts about where I’m going in life.
And [...]

The Incredible Expanding Cranium of Dr Crippens

No. I’m not a doctor.
But anyway, I spent a chunk of today rereading stuff. This (actually last) year’s nano (the gender bending post modern psychoanalytic revolution….and a load of pretentious nonsense) and last year’s (actually the year before last’s) nano (the Norse deconstruction of love and loss….and a load of childish nonsense) both got a [...]

Dancing with the Sea and the Starlings

I feel alive today, like, really alive.
It was a long day at work, but in the middle of it I had to go to the other side of town (Hove, actually) for a brief training course.
The fire safety training was not exhilarating, but the walk there and back was.
I love walking, and I haven’t had [...]

Awake

I am awake at precisely the wrong time. And I keep on hiding great posts with other posts. Though they may not be that great.
I’m literally just bemoaning my sleeping patterns, which today has led to me hungover waking at 6 (I got to bed earlyish, but drunk, and now I wake up with a [...]

Happy New Year? Maybe

So, not entirely seriously, I’ve decided that today is the first day of the new year.
There’s Solstice claims (noted over in Brightfeather’s yard) that the Winter Solstice marks the death of one sun and the birth of another. The Sun regrows, and so the new year begins.
So this morning (the day after the actual solstice [...]

Tired, Mauled and Bruised (Inside) - But I’m still changing

And a little hellbound.
Nah, it’s not that bad really, I’ve just spent a lot of the weekend being grouchy and miserable. Does anyone know anything about male hormonal cycles? Because I’m in a massive trough right now and am taking everything really badly. Just massive sensitivity, irritability and moodiness. I almost burst into tears yesterday [...]

I want Chocolate

It is hard to reward myself when I can’t turn to my usual staples of booze and other types of booze.
See, I hit 20k. Which means I managed 2.5k today. This is good wording, but now I’ve made that milestone, and I’m finding it hard to punctuate my day in such a way as to [...]

Breakin’ Down - ‘Im Balance

So,
This is brief, but it’s something I want to get out. Basically, I’ve been pushing myself to extremes recently, partly to deal with some family shit that I’ve been treating as an excuse to hedonise my head into the sand.
My brother’s being made redundant, my parents are having difficulty selling up to retire and my [...]

Negatory good buddy

Fun day yesterday, party, excitement, banter, skirts, wrestling, pomegranete fights, slightly uncomfortable people not sure how to deal with a guy in a skirt. Party slowly getting much better than expected.
Problematics though. No writing. Bad, should’ve written something. Tension/Arguments. People in slightly narky moods. Friends in states. Not all pleasant.
And then I get a call [...]